Fear

What a Monday yesterday was, yes friends? Days like this really make you want to curl up inside of your bed and never leave the house. Ever. My stomach is turning, and it didn’t help that when I went to the news page to read about the bombing, a banner thrown across the top of the page announced that an Earthquake has reported in Iran and Pakistan. I know this sounds crazy, but this especially makes me nervous since our house is located right on top of a fault…we do live in Earthquake country, after all. And let’s not even mention the feelings spawned by the bombing. It literally feels as if I can never leave my house as no place in this world is safe any more.

Last week, before Brandon and I left for a long weekend out of town, I wrote a blog post. It was entitled Fear. After writing it, I decided to wait to post it. Not sure why, but I just didn’t feel to hit that “publish” button. But this morning, when I woke up, I knew it was time to share it with you. I went ahead and edited some of it, but the majority of it is what I wrote last week. So, with knots in my stomach this morning, thanks to the bombings, the earthquake, and worry keeping me up at night over money, health issues, family members and other stressors….I want to give you what my thoughts were last week…with hopes that maybe it will encourage you, but most of all, with hopes it will remind me WHO is in charge and WHAT I should do with my fear.

My blog from last week:

I’m going to tell you a little story. One that I’m actually not very proud of, unfortunately.  Yet regardless, it’s a part of my life and who I am and I think it’s time to be talk about it.

I struggle with fear.

Let me explain… as a kid, I struggled so much with anxiety, especially separation anxiety. I’m speaking of the kind of fear that paralyzed you and wouldn’t allow you to speak, made you instantly nauseous, and made your mind think of all sorts of terrifying things. If you knew me as a young little girl you’re probably nodding your head right now. {ha} I never spent the night over at friend’s houses, hated scary rides at amusement parks, and movies that may have a ounce of intensity terrified me. I never wanted to leave my mom. EVER. She was my lifeline and made me feel safe all.the.time. I remember my parents liked to fly down to Mexico for week long vacations once or twice a year and I have vivid memories of me running after their car when they would drive out of the driveway. My poor parents!! hah. Now it just makes me laugh, but believe me when I say, as a kid it was no laughing matter.

 Thankfully, my mom was very clued into my feelings, God bless her. I’m not sure what triggered my anxiety as a kid. We moved a lot, so maybe that had something to do with it. To be honest, I was very blessed and had so much but….

IT DOESN’T MATTER WHAT YOU HAVE OR HOW BLESSED YOU ARE. FEAR AND ANXIETY CAN ATTACK ANYONE!!

In fact, it seems, from my short experiences with anxious people, that often it’s those who have an abundance that struggle the most with anxiety. At any case, I really believe that with all my heart, fear can hit you at any time, stage or moment in your life. Regardless of how blessed you may be.

As I became a teenager, things seemed to calm down a little for me in the fear department. Don’t get me wrong, I still struggled, but I started to learn techniques to combat those moments of sheer terror. I learned to breathe, focus, call on the name of Jesus…all of these things worked and helped me move farther and farther away from a pattern of anxiety. Today, I rarely struggle with those paralyzing moments…and when they do hit me, I usually take some deep breaths, focus on what’s around me and remember that HE HAS IT ALL UNDER CONTROL. That’s the key, I think.

 I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about fear lately. You see, there have been some things recently, that I touched on here, that have caused me to stay up at nights with anxiety. Thankfully it’s not the kind of paralyzing anxiety that I struggled with as a kid, but this kind of anxiety leaves me talking to the Lord a lot. Asking Him “why” and “how” and “what” of about certain things in life. And I’m going to be honest, sometimes I get angry. Because it’s not easy to look down at the full picture and see God’s plan. It’s not. There’s a balance to it, you know. You have to somehow find a way to look through things that might shake you and see the good….see the GOD in it. See HIS plan, not YOURS.

See, sometimes, when you follow HIM…the path isn’t always very clear. And just when you, so full of faith, hop on that path He may have for you, suddenly the path may seem very cloudy {especially when you look around you and it seems the world is falling apart}. And you look back at the other paths you could have taken and they look so sunny, and you suddenly wonder…WHAT HAVE I DONE?!?! …is any of this making any sense to you?

So I’ve been fighting. I’ve been fighting the anxiety with faith. With thankfulness. With peeling back the fog on my path and forcing my eyes to see the sun. Because it’s THERE. It really is. We walk these roads by faith. But I’m going to be honest, it’s not easy. If these roads were meant to be easy, then more than likely it wouldn’t be called a road of faith.

 I’m not sure how it happened, but two weeks ago I stumbled across Proverbs 31 online devotional journey with Melissa Taylor and I realized I still had time to join before it started. The book they were studying was The Stressed-Less Living. Ok, sounded good right? I hopped over to her blog and read the scripture that went with the first week….

“Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with My victorious right hand.” Isaiah 41:10 NLT

 Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. As I continued to read it, I realized that all the fear and all the anxiety of late was just God’s way of reminding me that I have forgotten… HE IS HERE. He is taking care of it, and all I have to do is hand it over to Him.

Please remember friends. God is with you. I promise, He is. I know sometimes it’s so hard to see it. Do your best to believe that beyond the cloudy, dark and scary nights, there is a sun that is breaking through, ready to shine.

Praying for Boston. Continually.

I love you all!

xoxo

Thank You {and} Coming Tomorrow

Oh you guys. You blow my mind. All your kindness and love you showed me after I bore my heart a little yesterday… you’re awesome. Yesterday’s post was one of the most viewed posts of all year, so I guess it’s pretty safe to say you guys don’t mind an honest post every now and then. {whew} Guess that just means I have to be brave and fess up every now and then. ;)

So thank you everyone for being so great. We’re in this together and I’m glad that we can encourage each other. Love you guys.

With that said, I wanted to tell everyone that one of the most asked about hoodie is coming back tomorrow. The Giraffe Brilla with a lovely Mrs Darcy Brooch will be available Thursday night {tomorrow}, March 7, at 6 PM PST.

I get countless requests for this one and so very many people have pinned this one on pinterest, too. I know, it’s pretty awesome! :) So here’s how this is going to work….

We are going to try something new. I want to make sure everyone gets what size they want, so tomorrow night once the hoodie is live:

1. ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS GET THE ITEM IN YOUR CART!! And then once you are popped over to paypal, there is a note to seller section…

2. WRITE THE SIZE YOU DESIRE in the notes to seller. Our sizes are listed in the listing, so make sure you study it tomorrow before they go live and you know what size you want.

I’m hoping this gives everyone a chance to snag one. I don’t have unlimited amounts, but I do have quite a few so we should be able to cover most of you. Just don’t hate me if it sells out faster than I think!! :(

Lastly…do you get our email blasts? Because there will be a discount code sent out tomorrow morning, so make sure you subscribe! If you don’t subscribe head over here

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And find where it says “Get the Evy’s Tree Newsletter” and enter in your info. Wahlah! that’s it! :)

Big hugs friends, see you tomorrow! xoxo

PS…can you pin this one?? :) Thank you!

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Meet Evy’s Tree: The Video

Oh friends. Wow. I can’t even express to you how excited I am today. Our first ever video is now up and ready for viewing. What’s it about you ask? Well…us. As a business. What we are all about. And its about the people who buy Evy’s Tree, and why they love it.

I can’t be more thrilled with how it turned out. I think it adequately displays the heart behind Evy’s Tree {even though I can’t STAND how I sound or look in it. ha}. You’ll get to hear me talk…and walk, and do weird things with my face. ha. But seriously, I think you’ll see my vision with the company and I love it.

It’s all because of you guys. I hope that comes across. We do this for you. If you don’t have an Evy’s Tree hoodie/wrap, I encourage you to watch the video and then hop on over to the shop and shop around. I’m sure you’ll find something you love AND…you can still get that FREE Gussy Sews item. Oh and guess what? I think there is still free shipping going on right now with the code JUSTBECAUSE. But don’t tell the management I told you so. ha. ;)

If you DO have an Evy’s Tree item… THANK YOU. We love you so much. Please feel free to use this video to share our company with your friends. I hope it touches you as much as it touched us when we first saw it. We love and appreciate you.

Before I close, I have to thank Brooke, my graphic designer, and David, my brother in law. The two of them teamed up creating the video. A few others I have to thank: Monika McSweeney, Jenny, Nicole, Carisa, Kirsten, Christie, Nora, Brittany, Brookie, Brandon and Maddie and all their friends. I love you guys.

  Big hugs friends!! xoxo

Oh PS…I haven’t forgotten about the house tour/goals. I’m finishing them up this week. Come back tomorrow. :)

So tell me…what do you think about the video?!?!

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Celebrating Jacob’s 6th Birthday…Western Style

I know, I know, today is supposed to be Food Friday. Whelp, I have a recipe all photoed, and waiting to be edited, but to be honest, thanks to my late night of loading the sale items in the shop, I’m just too tired to do it. So I guess we’ll have to plan on next week. Come back, I think you’ll love the recipe! But I DO have all of the pictures editted from Jake’s 6th birthday party…so would you like to see those today? You would? Well, great! :)

*Warning: Heavy photo post!

When Jacob told me that he wanted to have a Western style birthday, I freaked out a little. I shy away from ANYTHING western…it’s just not me and I feel so out of my element with cowboy boots and country music, ha.  But Jake was insistent upon it, so a Western theme it was, and I actually had a great time planning this party! Brandon and I first hopped on pinterest to see what other people have done for a “Western” theme. We found a LOT of cowboy stuff, which was cute, but Jake was clear he wanted not a COWBOY party but a WESTERN one {I guess he thought it opened up the costume department a bit more for his friends? who knows….ha}. Anyway, we got really inspired when Brooke sent over Jake’s invites. Isn’t Brooke amazing?

Something about this invite got me super excited and I saw immediately what I needed to do. Call me crazy, but I knew I needed Pompoms. Yes, for a boy party. Throw your darts if you must, but he loved them {and I ADORED them}. :)

I really, really MUST learn to be a little better organized. The party started at 5 and at 4:30 I was still running around like a chicken with my head cut off finishing things up. For the record, I spent a LOT of money on Jake’s ice skating party last year, and we just didn’t have that kind of money this year, so I figured for a 1/3 of the cost, I could do the party at home…if I cooked all the food, made the cakes, etc. WELL…I did. I did it ALL. I mean EVERYTHING. Yup. Call me crazy. And that’s why I was running around like a lunatic at 4:30. ha.

ANYWAY, when a couple of the moms got there, I threw the camera at my friend Jenny and told her to start take pictures. She, and later Sara, did an amazing job of capturing the party. Seriously AMAZING. The only thing is I never told them I wanted a full shot of the room with the hanging the pompoms and didn’t realize that until I had nearly cleaned up the room Saturday morning. So here’s a somewhat idea of what the full room looked like. ha.

The pompoms were so much fun, I just loved doing them. I followed THIS tutorial if anyone wants to make them. They were super easy. I used pipe cleaners instead of the flower wire stuff they suggested and I got a huge pack of them from the dollar store. I figured the each pompom cost me $1. Not bad! :)

One more picture of the pompoms, this one from the night of the party. I love this picture. You can see the pompoms, you can feel the happy spirit in the place, and my boy is too cute in his costume. I think I may frame this picture. I am SO GLAD that his special night turned out exactly how he wanted it. And it felt so good as a mom to host all his friends and have everyone have a good time. Special memories for sure!

Ok, pictures…I’ll tell you details of the party at the end. :) Here’s the Desert table..

Hot Chocolate Station…the kids LOVED this!!!

S’mores Station…so much fun! I think the adults liked this more than the kids. :)

We served dinner for everyone….

Waiting outside to greet his guests… He kept running around shooting everyone. Ugh. What a warm welcome, yes?

Friends….

Ev. :)

When we moved into our house we had this dug out hole that we could not figure out what it was for. We even asked the neighbors, but no one knew. We finally decided it was a fire pit {still not sure if it was, ha}, so we used it for the first time to roast s’mores on. We LOVE it!! Will definitely use it again. Such a great way to spend a chilly evening with friends. 

Jake, Gramps and Jake’s new Hike America Stick from our good friend Roy. Never heard of Hike America? Well, you’ve probably seen them, if you’ve been to any national park. Hike America sources the walking sticks for most National Parks and hiking areas. Roy is the brain behind it and one of my dad’s dearest friends. Jake was so excited to get his own “kid size” version of it. Thank you Roy!!

Making him refuel. He was obviously thrilled about it, can’t you tell? ha. 

Probably his favorite card of the night. It sings the Chipmunk song. We can’t figure out who it’s from as it’s not signed?? ha. But he loved it whoever gave it to him. Thank you! :)  

Mumsy and Gramps gave him a basketball hoop. He was thrilled.

Yes, I made the cake. Scroll down for more info. :)

Favors. Super easy, cost about a $1 each. Brooke made the bifold toppers for me, I bought a pack of 30 small bags from Target, went to the dollar store and found the water guns, harmonicas and sheriffs badges were from Party City and the gold chocolate coins were from the dollar section at Target. Win win for everyone!

Whelp…that’s it! It was a successful party for sure! We had friends stay until nearly 11 that night and we loved being with everyone. Thank you to all who came and made the night so special for Jake. We were honored you joined us. We love you!

And no, I didn’t clean the kitchen up that night, for all you who were wondering if I followed my own rule after a big party. I actually allowed myself to go to bed and wake up to this:

It was worth it. :) Big hugs everyone. xoxo

Chocolate Cake: Barefoot Contessa HERE {and yes, I used the coffee buttercream, it’s amazing.}

Chocolate and Peanut Butter Cupcakes: Barefoot Contessa HERE

Coconut Cupcakes: Barefoot Contessa HERE

Chili: Jamie Dean HERE {It was unbelievably good, and I don’t even like chili!}

Cornbread: Trader Joes

Salad: HERE {which I never served, ha, oops!}

Hot Dogs: Costco, cooked by Brandon :)

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I Got A Facelift…and Some Updates

Well, not me exactly, but my blog. :)

And oh my word….I love it. LOVE LOVE LOVE the new design. If you are reading from a reader {such as google}, or from an email subscription, I would love for you to hop on over and check out the new look. I think you will be so excited for our little blog. We look fabulous. Brooke, my graphic designer, really outdid herself. And not to mention the amazing photos by my brother in law, DASO photo. Seriously, the whole combo is simply stunning. Click on the header to see the whole thing…and be sure to check out the category buttons over to the right. Brooke is genius! :)

I’m so sorry I have been MIA recently…not that anyone is actually paying attention, ha. I have so much to catch you all up on…such as our Disneyland trip, our Christmas, some great vacation stories…but I have no idea if I’ll ever get around to blogging about them, so just trust me when I say, we’ve had a wonderful holiday season.

We’ve also been very busy. While the shop is shut down, I am doing my best to organize my life a little. I am a firm believer that the first step to success is to be pretty organized, and to be honest, last year was a crazy year for me and my organization skills, while already subpar, definitely became non existent. The poor studio was a disaster! The last couple weeks my girls and I have been tearing apart every nook and cranny and putting them back in the proper places, tossing things we don’t need and buying things that we do.

We’ve painted chairs, hung decorations, and Brandon built us some tables. Even my dad has come over and helped out by painting a little. We are nearly done and I hope to {finally} take some decent pictures of the studio so you can see where we create.

But the studio isn’t the only place I’ve been updating, I also cleaned out my pantry, which, if you follow me on Instagram, you probably already saw….

I am a horrible pantry keeper, unfortunately. Things end up being stuffed in and often I am finding things months later that I didn’t even know where there. NOT GOOD. With my New Year’s resolution weighing on my mind, I am striving to be much better with what I buy and simplify a little, so I took some little metal bins that we didn’t need in the studio and used them in the pantry. WOW…I know it doesn’t look a lot better, but it’s amazingly easy to see what I have now.

And while we’re speaking of my New Year’s resolution, I updated our budget. Last year was, as I stated, a crazy year, and unfortunately, I did not give the attention needed to our finances like I should have. I really, really want to wise in that area, as I’m sure you all do. Last week I poured over our books and set up a budget I feel will really work for us. As coincidence would have it, I’ve had more budget conversations with friends lately than I have in a really long time and I realized that I’m not the only one who is trying to find the proper way to manage their finances. I have always had a system, but sticking to it is probably the hardest part {amen, everyone?}. So in order to hold myself accountable…I am going to share with you my budget planning soon. Obviously I won’t let you in on all the hard numbers, but I am going to have Brooke make a downloadable of our budget worksheet so if you are looking for a good budget format, you can use it too. In my mind it’s useless to go to all that work if you can’t share it, right? :)

Speaking of budget, are you a small business or blog that has a budget for advertising? We would love to have you advertise here on the blog. We have a unique group of loyal readers who are interested in learning about new shops and blogs. We have two size ad spaces available…

along with giveaway and review options, all at very reasonable prices. I also do a blog post introducing all new sponsors once a month, which will include all your contact info, such as your website, facebook page, twitter, etc. You can find out all of our stats, pricing and information HERE. We would love to have you join us!

In closing, I owe you all some Evy’s Tree shop talk, especially regarding our manufactured goods. I will fill you in on that and much more later this week, but let me say this…manufacturing in the beginning is slllloooowwww going. Almost to the point where you want to pull your hair out kind of slow. It’s safe to say we won’t have the manufactured goods here this month as originally planned, but they are coming very soon and I think you will love what we have. I will designate an entire blog post to it this week so you are all in the loop. In the meantime, we WILL have a small handmade Spring 2013 line this month for you. I am SO EXCITED about the handmade Spring line. First, remember this big time seller:

After many, many requests, the Grace Wrap will be making a comeback.  Plan on seeing the is one coming your way with the rest of the spring items the end of this month.

PS.. we will be having a bunch of grace wrap giveaways next week… will you join us? :)

Regarding the shop reopening: I still have quite a bit of sale items, especially in kids sizes, so I will reopen the sale section with a bunch of items on Monday, January 21. The new Spring items will be announced, but most likely the following week. Please remember: all Spring 2013 items will be FULL PRICE. Our Save Evy’s Tree leftover hoodies are all gone and we are now resuming our regular programing. If you want a good deal, I suggest you snag one of the sale items coming next week. :)

Oh, wait, one more thing! Several days ago I made a call out on our facebook page to photographers…asking to trade some Evy’s Tree items for product photos. WOW!! You guys!! I have over 50 emails from photographers willing to work with us. I’m embarrassed to say I didn’t even think I would get five!! And you all are amazing photographers!!! So what to do now? Well, obviously, I don’t need 50 photographers, so I compiled a list of you all and will definitely contact you in the future if the need arises. I have contacted the ones we are going to use {I only needed 2 or 3}, so if you didn’t hear from me that means I cataloged your info and will reference it in the future. THANK YOU so much everyone for being so amazing and willing to help us. I sincerely am blown away by how many of you wanted to work with us. There are no words to explain my gratitude. I love you guys!!!!

Whew…I guess that’s it! Did I cover enough for you? So sorry for such a lengthy post. To recap:

  • Our Blog got a facelift! Click HERE to see it.
  • The Shop is shut down, but the Sale Section will reopen with items on January 21
  • We are now accepting advertising on our blog. Click HERE to check out all the info.
  • Need a photographer? Check out all these amazing ones HERE.

Love you all! xoxo

Choose Joy: A Guest Post On Surviving Infertility and Adoption

Happy New Year Friends!! I hope you all had a safe and exciting end of the year. Us Miraflors just laid low..we were SO TIRED from our Disneyland trip and Christmas. Are we the only parents who can barely keep their eyes open now a days? Sheesh! Anyway, I pretty much summed up my New Years feelings in this post, hope you had a chance to read it. 

I hope to catch you up to date on our holidays later this week and after I am able to finish all my end of the year duties for Evy’s Tree….so today, I want to start the year off with discussing a topic that I know many of my personal friends struggle with. I hope Emmy can inspire and encourage you. And I hope you sincerely think about attending the Choose Joy event. Please be sure to contact Emmy with any questions. 

Love you friends! Take it away Emmy….

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I’m Emmy, I’m 35, and I’m infertile.

Wait, let me back up.  I’m Emmy.  Amy has been so sweet to allow me to invade her space for the day.  I own Much Ado About You {where I used to sell printed day planners, and now I just sell printables}, I occasionally blog {Confesstions of a Paper Freak}, and I incessantly Instagram {@itsjustemmy}.  I am married to my high school sweetheart and as of this year we have been together for more than half our lives.

Almost 11 years ago I got pregnant for the first time.  Nathan and I were so excited, and immediately started planning that child’s future.  We were thinking of names… wondering if it would be a boy or a girl… hoping its due date of December 26th would not mean we were going to have a Christmas baby.

But just a few days later I started bleeding heavily, and knew in an instant that that baby was gone.

We had only just begun trying to get pregnant, but I had so many friends experiencing infertility and I begged God to spare us from that roller coaster.

Our doctor told us that since we were so early in the pregnancy I would not need a D & C, and that technically I could get pregnant as soon as my next cycle.

Which I did.

That pregnancy was such a relief, and I vividly remember thanking God that I was never going to have to walk that long and painful road of infertility.

A year after Beau was born we decided to start trying for a second baby.  We wanted four, so we thought we’d better get going!

God had different plans for our family.

The next six years were spent going from one doctor’s appointment to the next… from one surgery to the next… all in an effort to figure out why my young and seemingly healthy body was not working.

I have Endometriosis, a condition that basically destroys your body from the inside out.  During my final surgery my doctor made the painful decision to remove both of my non-functioning fallopian tubes, hoping it would increase the chance of my third and final IVF {invitro-fertilization} treatment being successful.

The next month we had our final IVF procedure.  It failed.  We were done.

We were physically {well mostly me on that one}, emotionally, and financially spent.  The chance of a natural pregnancy was eliminated with the removal of my tubes.  I was officially STERILE.  It is still strange to say those words.  I am a woman that cannot do what I was created to do… bear children.  That is a very strange reality to be faced with.

I spent seven dark years in the thick of my infertility {I say “my” infertility because the issues were mine… with another woman my husband could have had more children… more salt in the wounds}.  For some of those years Nathan and I were not on the same page.  He didn’t understand my desperation for a child when I already was a mom.  Those years I struggled with a deep loneliness that I had never known.  It is so hard to explain what infertility feels like to someone that has never experienced it, but the bottom line is… IT SUCKS.

However, God also used those seven years to challenge my character and bring me to a place of total trust and reliance on His plan for my life.  I came to a point where I had to say, “God, I love you and I trust you, and I know that {while very different from mine} Your plan is the best plan for my life.  So even if I never have another baby I will praise you and be thankful for whatever it is that you call me to do.”

And I really was at peace.  Without tubes I no longer had to live in two week cycles, wondering if each late period was the one.  I had an incredible eight year old that was the joy of my life, a loving, supportive husband, a thriving business… life was good.

Now since I have already babbled on for quite some time {and probably lost most of you} I will leave this next part of the story short and sweet {if you would like to read the whole story, you can find it here}.  Through miraculous circumstances, in March of 2011 we brought home the most beautiful baby girl that looks nothing like us.

And in the instant that I met her I understood every no that God had placed in my path.

If you are in a season of not understanding the circumstances of your life, please be encouraged that someday you may understand and even appreciate the painful path that you are walking.

Since experiencing infertility and adoption I have a heart for encouraging hurting women.  Several months ago I felt a calling on my life to do something to help other women that are experiencing similar trials, and the Choose Joy event was born.

Choose Joy is a one-day conference in Southern California for women and couples that are experiencing infertility and/or desire to grow their families through adoption.  I have somehow convinced several other women from all over the country to come and be a part of this event.  We have speakers on topics such as “God’s Heart for the Hurting; Waiting Hurts, Waiting Perfects”, “Having a Heart of Hope: Overcoming the Hurt of Infertility”, “The Good, the Bad, and The Ugly of International Adoption”, and much, much more.  My desire is for this to be a day of connection and community, and for women to open their minds to the plan that God has for their family.

The event will include a luncheon and a dessert, and at the end we will be raffling off a cash prize to help someone grow their family.

Tickets are on sale for $30 through the 25th of January.  {After that the price goes up to $40, so don’t delay!}  Please visit the website for all the details on the location and schedule, bios on each speaker, and to register for the event.

If you aren’t experiencing infertility, statistics say that someone you know is.  Please pass this website on to your friends or family that could use some support.

Thanks for reading my story.

XOXO,

Emmy

My Christmas Tree is Dying

So today, as I walked past my Christmas tree, I reached over and felt the needles. I do this periodically because I love the feel of Christmas trees, and I love the way it leaves your hands smelling like a Winter Wonderland! ;) But instead of that feeling of excitement bubbling inside of me, I felt dread.

My tree is dying. I took a picture of it from where I”m sitting here at my desk area. I’m sure you can tell right away its dying {I know, you can’t but humor me}

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God Looks On The Heart

I think one of the easiest things to do is judge others and compare to yourself. I find I do this, sometimes, without even thinking. I find most Christians in general struggle with this. And why not, I guess? We are striving to live a Christlike life {which is sometimes mistakenly translated: Perfection}, and in our race to do what HE asks us to do, we sometimes fall into the pitfall of thinking “holier than thou” thoughts. I know, it’s hard to confess this, but there it is. I will speak for myself here, at least.

This past week I felt myself struggling with thoughts along these lines. I went back and forth between, “I’m not good enough, I’ve made too many mistakes, I have no idea what I’m doing in life” to “Thank God I’m not like HER. She’s a nightmare.”

Confession. It’s good for the soul, right?

I have felt the Lord deal with me about these things recently. Sometimes He is showing me how HUMAN I am. How I can’t do things on my own. How when I try live this life without Him I make a big mess of it. And how He is full of grace and mercy and will pick up the pieces when I have made a mess of things. Like my dad. You know how Dad’s do that? Well, that’s what HE’S like. It’s powerful.

He also shows us how important it is to look at the heart. Because if you were to look at my life during these times when I’ve tried to do things on my own, you’d think I’m a DISASTER. You’d think {or judge} that I’m a huge failure and you’d probably witness some of these mistakes that I make first hand. Pretty sure you’d not want to be my friend if you looked on the outside during these times.

And then sometimes…when life is going good…you might look at me and think, “oh wow, look at her life. She is so lucky. She has this and that {you fill in the blank}. Her business is booming, her kids are all put together, and her husband is blowing up.”

I can say this because these are the things when I look at YOU. Pretty sure that’s how many of you think when you look at some of those around you. I know this isn’t the first time we have talked about this subject here, but in this highly visually stimulating world, I feel it bears repeating. Looks can be deceiving. The OUTWARD can be deceiving. Because remember…God looks on the heart.

I was given a very good reminder of this last week. I had something happen with another mom’s reaction to Jake’s enthusiasm {craziness ha}that made me sooo frustrated. The protective mom in me was ready to let her know how I really felt about the situation {and her, ha}. But after I had a long text chat with another friend close to the situation {thanks friend, you know who you are}, I was reminded, “we all have our struggles” and I have no idea what that particular mom was going through that may have caused her to react that way. I really have NO IDEA what her heart is like. I only saw the outward…which is deceiving.

Today I sat down and read about Samuel anointing David to be king, and the following passages when David slays Goliath. So crazy as the last couple months I have been so addicted to the Old Testament, where for years and years growing up, I had such a hard time reading and connecting to the Old Testament. But lately, oh boy, it totally speaks right to me!

And you know what hit me…how HUMAN David was. I know, this is not new news. But I love the whole way Samuel questions God. Like, “Really, God? THIS KID?!”. And I love how David blows everyone’s minds by killing Goliath. He’s so you and me {ok, well, ME at least, you might be perfect, ha ;) }….he’s easily angry, misunderstood, impulsive {“I’ll kill that giant!”} and confident. And then as he becomes king and matures, he is still misunderstood …people think he’s perfect, look at his successes and are surprised at his failures.

Oh boy I love that David.

Because here’s the deal: I feel like him so much. So misunderstood some times. And other times I feel like I can conquer the world. And then sometimes I feel like looking at people and feeling sorry for myself…thinking they have succeeded and I haven’t. That I’m a huge fauilre as a mom, as a business woman, I’m not as pretty as them, or I as creative as someone else. My house doesn’t look like hers or my blog is poop compared to theirs. My business should be booming like that one, or how come her kids are more well behaved? Yes, I struggle too.

And David is SUCH a good reminder that you should never, EVER, look on the outward. You should always look at the heart. Because things are never, EVER how they seem. Until you walk in someone else’s shoes {right text chat friend?? :) }….

“But the Lord said to Samuel, ‘Do not consider his appearance or his height…. The Lord does not look at the things mans looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” I Samuel 17:7-8

Big hugs friends. xoxo

Looking For a Particular Hoodie?

So I know, shopping at Evy’s Tree is a bit frustrating at the moment. So sorry about that. Let me reiterate what’s going on around here:

Our manufactured goods are coming January/February 2013. Although I cannot guarantee an exact time, I can tell you I have paid for the goods and they are in the process of being made. This is my first time mass producing so I do expect delays. 

So what to do in the meantime…

Well, you may remember that I mentioned waaayyy back during the Save Evy’s Tree campaign that we had some left over raw hoodies and material. My seamstresses have been sewing up what they can to produce some inventory for the shop to get us through Christmas. But apparently, it’s not enough.

We have completely run out of most raw adult hoodies. Which means we don’t have much left to make. The question has been asked: why don’t you just place an additional order with American Apparel? Well, because right now, we just can’t afford it. To make it financially feasible for us, we have to order things in BULK…like 200- 300 hoodies at a time. That’s a lot of hoodies…and we don’t really have the space at the moment to house that, especially since we have rearranged our studio to house our manufactured goods.

But I know, it’s frustrating…many of you want to partake of the cyber monday great prices, but just can’t find anything in your size. I get it. So here’s what we can do…

Please leave a comment on this blog {or email me at amy@evystree.com} with the STYLE and SIZE of hoodie you would like, as well as your PAYPAL EMAIL ADDRESS. If we have the material for the hoodie you want, but not the raw hoodie, we will email you and give you the option to buy the item for the price of $54.95 +shipping cots…it is more expensive than the $39.95 cyber Monday price, but discounted from the $69.95 cost. Please do not comment with a style and a size if you are not willing to pay the extra amount. If we have the fabric to make your hoodie, we will send you an invoice. You must pay for the invoice within 12 hours, and then we will order the raw hoodie and make the item for you. Your items will ship the weekend of December 14.

This option is only available through tomorrow, Tuesday November 27. I will stop taking orders at 10 PM PST. 

I hope this helps some. Thank you, dear friends, for being such loyal supporters of Evy’s Tree. You guys are AWESOME!! I appreciate your love during this transition.

Brandon’s Mt. Whitney Trip Through The Eyes Of DASO Photo

You might remember me mentioning that Brandon was climbing Mt. Whitney with some friends and family {HERE} and {HERE}. Brandon loves extreme challenges like this…this is his 5th time to climb this mountain and his 4th time to summit. That’s a pretty big feat when you realize that Mt. Whitney is the highest mountain in the continental United States.

Personally, I don’t see the excitement in the trip AT ALL. My poor husband; he is always telling me, “Wouldn’t it be so romantic to climb Mt. Whitney together?”.

UHHH……No. 

I feel horrible telling him that, but I could just see myself attempting to climb that mountain. I can barely make it through one barsculpt class without passing out, I’m pretty sure that I wouldn’t make it on Mt. Whitney. Oh, and did I mention you don’t shower for like 48 hours? Right, reason #2 why I couldn’t do it.

On the past trips that Brandon has taken, he has only snapped a couple of photos. But this time around, our brother in law David {who, if you have read this blog for any time know,  is an amazing photographer}. I’m sure this will not make Brandon happy to hear me say, but after seeing these photos, although they are GORGEOUS, I absolutely, positively, could NEVER climb this mountain. No siree. Yikes.

I picked out a few of my favorites to show you. You can see the entire trip {HERE}. There are a lot pictures here, so brace yourself, but I think you will love seeing them. I asked Brandon to add in a little commentary.

Getting ready to head up the mountain! From left to right, David, Brandon, our good friend cory, Brandon’s high school buddy Rustin, his cousin Nathan, another high school friend Jason and Brandon’s brother Bryson in the front. 

Mountains all around!

A model of the mountain, stating the height. 

In Lone Pine, the town at the base of Whitney, eating dinner. Nathan in front of a super cool old pharmacy.

Eating at an old diner called Mt. Whitney Diner…a tradition for Brandon, he has eaten there every time he climbs the mountain.

Starting out on the trail at 3 AM the next morning. Bright and early and super, super dark. yuck-o. ha.

Head lamps are essential

Sunrise on the trail…

Brandon and Rustin….

Nathan hanging out…on a GIANT rock

Brandon and Jason resting….

Taking a moment to rest as a group…

Such a gorgeous picture with that sun shinning through! Nathan on the trail

A benchmark along the way…

Another reason why I couldn’t do this trip…the food! yuck! Stopping to eat….

Some of the group way in the distance. Sheer drop here..very scary!

The lake at the trail camp, where they spent the one night on the trail {the entire hike takes two full days, one night on the trail} was completely frozen over. Of course my husband was the brave one to venture out on the ice. Ugh. Sometimes I wish he wasn’t such a daredevil!

Camping out at trail camp the one night on the trail. According to Brandon, the first day is the easiest, the second day is brutal, so they get to bed early.Up and at them again at 3 AM….ready to take on the day. Sunrise as they start out on the trail

Their camp is way, way down this ravine. Sun is rising and light helps their trail. It is also very, very cold.

Added onto the steep, steep ravines is snow and ice.

Brandon taking a rest….

Beautiful, beautiful shot.

Altitude sickness starts to really set in, most of the guys are feeling it pretty badly at this point. Not to mention they are tired…having slept on hard ground with snow falling on them can’t be fun.

It’s very hard to see, but there are little “veins” of snow in these rocks. Those are actually the trail switchbacks, that is what the guys were climbing towards the top.

Nathan nearing the top

Finally, Brandon can’t handle the altitude sickness anymore and stops to throw up. Altitude sickness is the number one reason why people never make it to the top of Mt. Whitney. In fact, only one in three people will actually summit, thanks to the sickness {so it is a big deal all seven of them did}. Apparently, on top of vomiting, you can experience light headiness and hallucinations, and other very interesting side effects {HERE}. Brandon had been training so much this time that he didn’t get as sick as normal, but it still got him.

At long last…the team makes it to the top

They take just about 45 mins to enjoy this great feat…but not too long, as they still have to go the entire way back down, which took them an estimated 9 hours.

They signed the guest register….

Brandon said, “I love Amy, Jake and Evy”. Sweet :)

The shelter at the top, built by the Smithsonian, you can read more info about it {HERE}. It is over a hundred years old!

The hike down, David didn’t take many pictures. I think at this point, the group was exhausted, sick and done. This is them Sunday morning, after a good nights sleep at Comfort Inn. :)  

Brandon’s hands were chapped and peeling

Doesn’t this sound like something you want to run out and do?!? ha! Even though the preparation for this trip is a bit annoying {picture camping gear strewn all over your spare room for months before the trip}, I am so glad that Brandon has this experience to share with his close family and friends. This group of people has been particularly special to Brandon {in fact them all, with exception of Cory, were in our wedding} and even though it seems crazy, this experience brought them closer and gave them memories to share for years to come.

Although the wives who are left behind are bitting their nails the entire time since there is no cell reception…we spend many hours wondering if we will have to collect life insurance money or not. You might think I’m kidding, but I’m not! ;)

We love these guys! Thanks for joining Brandon on this trip! And to David…these pictures are amazing! {Amen readers?!?} Thank you for making this trip so special by documenting it so well! Remember, you can see the entire trip {HERE}

Do you love David’s work?!? Do you live in {or near} Santa Rosa, CA?

Well, you are in luck. He will be here on Friday and Saturday, Nov 23 and 24 and has a few slots available for family photo sessions. He charges $125 a session with a $50 photo credit. Want more info? Email him at: david@dasophoto.com to book your spot!

Big hugs friends! Thanks for following along! xoxo