Hello dear friends.
Warning…random thoughts ahead!
How to describe life the last week or so?
Ugh, there are no words…
except bad ones, so I will keep those words to myself.
First of all, its been HOT HOT HOT.
I know, I know, I don’t live in Arizona where its 107 at 8PM {as one of my friends reminded me!}, but I am a born and bred San Francisco baby area girl. Hot is 85 degrees!! And if it ever did hit the high 90′s it was only for a couple hours in the middle of day then the cool coastal fog would roll in and stay there until 10 am the next morn.
Hence my love for hoodies, because it could quickly turn from a scorcher to a cool breezy evening in two seconds flat. So we always wore layers and had a hoodie in the trunk of the car.
Anyway, I digress…
So its been hot, but on top of that, I’ve been avoiding something that I needed to do for a while now. It’s one of those things that you have to do, but don’t want to. And my Dad keeps calling and reminding me to do it, {bless his heart}…you know that sort of thing. I won’t bore you with the details of it or even tell you what it is, but the “pressure”, so to speak, of getting this “thing” done was probably worse than the actual “thing”.
I know, speaking in code here, but basically what I am trying to say is, this “thing” has been making me go crazy {at this point you probably think I AM crazy for all this code talking haha}, and it all hit the fan yesterday.
Lots of tears, frustraion, woe is me…
you know, all the emotions we girls are so good at.
And the emotions my husband doesn’t understand AT ALL.
Yup those.
And not to mention it was ungodly hot yesterday….
Anyway, today I finally bit the bullet and sat down and did my “thing”.
And I feel so much better.
DARN EMOTIONS!!!!
Dear Lord, if I didn’t have any emotions, I probably would have done my “thing” a long time ago and saved myself a lot of heartache, angry words with my spouse, crying children because they wondered where their mom went, etc., etc.
SHEESH.
Have you ever been there? Am I the only mom who finds herself wondering where in the world she went? What happened to the rational, independent person who HAS A BRAIN?!?
*ahem*
Ok, so carrying on here…
A bad word I WILL share with you all, one that I have been working on lately…
Schedule
EWWWW…Did you all just shutter like I did?
Yes, schedule is a very bad word in my vocabulary and when someone mentions it, I get all prickly and snap back, “I don’t have one!” {Sorry, Mom and Dad, since you guys are always asking me for mine!}
Anyway, I think I hate the word so much because when I was in college I was always on a class schedule and then when I started teaching you are on a rigid schedule and well, when I quit teaching, I just ADORED not being on a schedule! I could pee when I wanted to, eat when I wanted to, sleep however long I wanted to. It was FAB.
But I have a dilemma.
I have started a home business and that means that if anything gets done, its by my own schedule not someone else’s, which means, I HAVE TO MAKE ONE!!
Yikes.
So girls {and men, if you read this}…
I did it. I made a schedule for myself. And I feel so much better and the word isn’t so bad anymore.
My friend SoShawna asked me if it stressed me out more to have time guidelines and my answer is NO. Because my schedule is FLUID. When I was teaching I learned to do my daily schedule in pencil so I could erase and change as I needed, even 5 mins before something came up. So my schedule now is just like that. If I need to move things around, I do. After all, I work for myself for crying out loud.
But at least now I KNOW what do, instead of WONDERING what do. You get me?
So here’s how my schedule works. Brandon and I have both gotten Google calendars and sync’d them with our phones. Both our schedules pop up on our calendar and every night I double check them, print out the schedule and pop it in the front page of my business binder. I then make notes either in a notebook I have or directly on the paper as to “to do” things that come up and I need to remind myself of.
My binder looks like this:
Since the calendar is also sync’d with my phone, reminders go off all the time of what I am supposed to be doing and if I am online, reminders pop up.
GREAT GREAT system…so far at least.
I have also made a promise to myself that I WILL NOT go to bed without the kitchen and my little factory cleaned up and “somewhat” {key word here} organized, as I cannot tell you how discouraging a messy kitchen and factory is to wake up to.
So here’s my little factory in the process of being cleaned up at night…
Everything gets put into bins and tucked away nicely. Jake seems to think he’s quite the help!
And a very bad, dark picture of the table, but one of the few where its not horribly cluttered!! whoohoo! And the new Bordeaux Brilla is in the process of being made….
Oh yes, since my computer is in my bedroom, Brandon and I have a deal that whoever is out of bed last will make the bed, since the bed takes literally 5 mins to make but it’s the LAST thing I want to do during the day?!?
SOOOO…..
My friends, I am very curious as to how you keep yourself organized? Please share some tips…I would love to know how to help myself from going crazy and avoiding “things” {here I go again, in code!}.
And at risk of making this post longer than it should be…I leave you a video that I watch over and over. During emotional times when I feel like such a failure, I have to remember that I don’t get my identity from life, or how people think of me, I get my identity from Christ. This song reminds me of how much He loves me NO MATTER WHAT.